I love writing, whether it's fiction/non fiction, rambling random thoughts , expressing my feelings or those of others.  You can create absolutely anything with just a pen and a piece paper.... or now days a key board.  Imagination is unlimited!  Poetry, Music & Literature have an extreme influence on feelings and in my opinion the power to give strength, change a mood or set a tone. 

What Am I Waiting For?

I'm lost in a world of confusion, pain, and heart ache.  It takes so much just to make me smile.  I'm weak, my bodys trembling and my blood thickens as I sit here and wait.  What am I waiting for?

It seems as if I'm waiting for nothing.  The craving for food no longer exists, its something I must take in just to funtion and to control myself from withering away.  Everythings a rollercoaster, one minute my minds at ease and the next its full of times of turbulence and confusion that conrols my every move.

What am I waiting for?  .....nothing

I have yet to find a cure.  The cure I once thought there was is the innermost cause of the disaster and wreck I have become.  I'm lost.  No one can guide me, words of advice slide right through my mind thickening the pain that i'm already feeling.  The craving for anything that will clear my mind gets stronger everyday.

I wait...........nothing

I've broken down...but not yet completely.  I fight the urge and pressure of tears trying to pour out  my eyes everyday.  The thought of life no longer sounds tempting to me.  I have nothing to look forward to.  My head feels like its going to burst from all the lies and deceit its been filled with.  My visions blurred...I can't think clearly.  My bodys pounding and there is a river flowing behind my eyes...I can feel it, but i hold it from breaking through. 

I close my eyes to calm myself but all i see is darkness, my mind is racing but yet i can no longer think....